20 weeks along!

It's hard to believe we are already twenty weeks into my pregnancy. I'm over half way done since we are having twins. I haven't blogged a lot about it partly because I'm superstitious and I like to wait a long time before mentioning such a major thing in public, but mainly we have just been very busy and Sofia tends to be on my mind a lot. So let me rewind a bit. Tim and I always wanted our kids to be close in age, he and his brothers are all about 18 months apart and they are all still close to this day. My sisters and I are further apart but we are still close, just in a different way. We also like the idea of Sofia having people to play with and learn to share with all the time. Finally, we figure we'll have a few hard years with diapers and whatnot but then we can be done with diapers and move on. I actually found out I was pregnant the day I was running the St. Jude half marathon. I thought about not running but I was in great shape and running regularly so I knew everything would be fine. I actually didn't tell Tim right away, I wanted to surprise him. Initially I was thinking of waiting until Christmas but I wanted to be able to have a private moment together so I just gave him his Christmas present early and put a positive pregnancy test on a card for him. Tim was thrilled!

We had our first ultrasound right before we left for Christmas in Wisconsin and all three of us went to the big show. We were shocked to discover that we were expecting twins. A few weeks ago we found out that the twins are both boys! We were very surprised by this, we were expecting a boy and a girl or two girls. We are excited to welcome boys into our family and I know Sofia will be a great big sister. I also know that there will probably be a tough adjustment period for her. Along with twins on the way, we are planning to move back home to Wisconsin at the end of May. We are so excited to be closer to family and old friends. I can't tell you how much I'm going to miss our Memphis friends and little things we have come to love in this city. It's hard to believe we have less than two months left in this city.

The twins official due date is August 13th but that is based on 40 weeks gestation, our doctor thinks we will likely deliver before or at 38 weeks. This brings me to the things that have been stressing me out lately. Tim is flying home next week to interview for some different jobs (he currently has 6 interviews in 2 days, he will be one busy boy), none of the jobs are in the same cities as our families but being in the same state will be better than the 11 hour drive we currently have. So we will have to pack up and move when I am 29 weeks pregnant. We plan to live with Tim's parents while we wait for Tim's licensing to go through. Then we will move wherever Tim takes a job. It's a bit stressful to not know where I'm going to deliver, who will be my doctor, and where we will be living. We don't have the means to buy a house and trying to rent in July or August may prove to be difficult since many of the jobs are in our old college town and housing is snapped up early before school starts. I also am excited to stay that I will finally be able to live my dream of staying at home. It was so hard for me to go back to work when Sofia was born. Luckily we had a lot of help and she didn't have to go to daycare until she was 5 months old. I am excited to stay at home but also nervous about taking care of three children under the age of two.  One of my great friends reminded me today that if God wouldn't have given me these children if He didn't think I could handle it. I know I need to just let go and trust that things will work out. I'm excited to see what God has in store for our family.