Prayers please

WARNING: This post may come off as me complaining but I just need to write to vent out some of my fear and worries for the coming weeks. If you are a person of faith, I would appreciate prayers for the well being of our new babies, Sofia's transition, my health and recovery, Tim's new job and hopefully we can find a nice, safe place to live.

My husband Tim officially accepted an optometry job with a practice north of Milwaukee. The offices are in Fox Point, Mequon, and Fredonia. We are very excited but now we're trying to figure out what to do about the twins and where to live, etc. We thought it was stressful selling our house and moving two weeks before Sofia was born. Tim had to take round 1 of National Boards two weeks after she was born and we were sharing one car. Looking back, that situation seems easy compared with what we are faced with now.

Tim put in a few hours on July 1st so he could have his official start date as July 1st since we have to wait 3 months for health insurance. So now we are going to have to pay the extremely high COBRA rate to have insurance until Tim is eligible. We are having a very difficult time finding a rental that we can afford along with our school loan payments. The area will Tim will be practicing is very nice but extremely expensive for renting or buying. Tim starts a full time schedule July 11th and the doctors are expecting the twins to be delivered sometime around July 29th. We will be having a scheduled cesarean because of Baby A's position.  I don't want to switch doctors and hospitals again so I plan to stay in Baraboo with Tim's parents and Sofia. Tim will be living with my parents in Waukesha and unfortunately he will have a very long drive to work and won't be with Sofia and I for a while. I'm definitely sad that I'll have to go to the rest of my appointments by myself and I know how much Sofia and I will miss Tim and vice versa. I'm really trying not to say much about it because I know how much this situation is killing Tim. It would've been really nice to just wait to work until a month after the twins are born but without me working that's impossible, optometry school was very expensive.

The practice said they can give Tim three or four days off when the twins are born, I'm really hoping he can make it to the delivery and at least spend a day or two with me in the hospital. Then will begin the toughest part of the journey. We haven't been able to find a house to rent that's available anytime soon so after the twins are born Tim will return to Waukesha to work and I'll go back to Baraboo with three kids. My parent's house is too small for 4 more people to move in. It breaks my heart that Tim will miss the first few weeks with our children. I loved having one whole week of just Tim, Sofia and I when she was born. Tim was always such a huge help during the night too so I'm a bit nervous about handling night time feedings by myself with two newborns. I know I can change them but I'm wondering how I will get myself situated to nurse them together. I'm also nervous about caring for the twins plus Sofia during the day while I try to recover from my surgery.